Friday, April 30, 2010

little bitty

dear baby h,
you are so sweet. so kissable. so loveable. you are an absolute blessing to our lives. we can hardly remember life without you. and to think, your daddy was very happy to stop at just 2 babes. now he's smitten, beyond belief. as am i. did you know that when i fell pregnant, i was actually the scared one? there were some circumstances which made it a hard time to be pregnant (not so much for us, but for close ones around us). but we know the Lord had it in His plans from day 1. He knew we'd be a bit scared and nervous... and He also knew how quickly we'd fall in love with you. i felt you move the first time at one of our ultrasounds. we saw you swimming and waving and floating in the water. then i felt it. that familiar twinge. that tiny little tap, letting me know you were in there, sharing my space with me. i think that's when i started to really get excited. i started to bond, so to say. from then on, it was excitement waiting for you. however we were very patient. i enjoyed having you inside me. maybe because this time we knew it would be the last time. you were the last little person to live inside of my womb, sweet babe. and i treasured it. oh, did i treasure it. i rubbed you and spoke to you, sang to you. and you grew, and grew. when you came, it was also a surprise. a little late. who would have thought? two earlier babes and then you... late but perfect as can be! your timing was impeccable, you said. we have marveled at you every day since then. showing us what a miracle and gift you are. you sleep well during your naps and at night. you do the cutest thing. you suck your first finger. it is quite funny and we get comments on how sweet it is everywhere we go. for now we'll love on it, because it really is quite adorable... and we'll worry about the orthodontist bill another day. i do love to nurse you. it is our special time. although maybe more special for momma than for you. i've never had a 'cuddly' little nurser with any of you girls. you are no different than your sisters. get the job done quickly then back to play. but i try to prolong the sessions. looking into your blue eyes and trying to get a glimpse into the future. or is it into the past? trying to see what heaven was like before you came to us. this is what we tell your sisters where you were before you came to us. it passes as a reasonable explanation for them and really, we like to imagine you sitting up in heaven waiting for the right time to join our family. you have been a heaven sent addition. we're so thankful for you, little bitty. we will continue to enjoy you, pray for you, play with you, protect you from your obsessive sisters, cuddle you, kiss you, hug you, smell you, change you, carry you and so much more. you are our baby. thanks be to God for blessing us immeasurably!


a few of your six month pictures:


Lauren said...

Such a beautiful post and such gorgeous pictures:)! She is one beautiful baby girl:)

stephanie joy said...

aw, thanks lauren! :)

Emma said...

Simply beautiful. Your post brought tears to my eyes. Your girls are so blessed to have you as their mommy and I know you in return, realize how blessed you are to have them. Loved the pictures of H, she is gorgeous.